Con, noun, a reason against a given subject, convention
As you have probably already figured out, I am a pretty big nerd. Cosplay, fan art and all, but I have only ever been to one con, Packs, and while it was quite interesting, but to me it was not all of what cons are cracked up to be. I am unsure of why it wasn't super fun. It could be because I'm not a big gamer or because I didn't know what I was doing, or because there is just to much of a social aspect for cons to ever be appealing to me. Should I give it another try?
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Friday, March 29, 2013
Monday, March 25, 2013
Weekends
Weekends, noun, the last two days of a week, the time that is supposed to be used for relaxing and generally being lazy
As you have probably already guessed I am really tired, as was my phone last night, thus the not posting until today.
As you have probably already guessed I am really tired, as was my phone last night, thus the not posting until today.
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Procrastinate
Procrastinate, to wait around in hopes of being struck by a sudden insperation, to wait untill the last second to do something
I really don't think of myself as a procrastinator, but this past month has been really full and I didn't have time or energy to work on this long term project and now it's due tomorrow so...
On a semi-related note I'm really very sorry that I haven't been posting anything. When I first decided to make this I figured I would post pictures of what I was working on all the time, but I have been really busy with school. If you guys want me to talk about or show you anything on particular just let me know. For example I could tell you about the up coming choir field trip where we get to leave school to sing at another school or how the people in my science class are terrible to work with or how I feel like I am losing my best friend. I could even tell you about his huge project I'm working on.
Speaking of my life, we had auditions to get into the higher level of band in my school and I got in!!!!! I was really excited because I was fairly sure my oboe playing skills are not as good as they could be. Anyway I should be getting to sleep now, I have a long day of cramming to do tomorrow.
I really don't think of myself as a procrastinator, but this past month has been really full and I didn't have time or energy to work on this long term project and now it's due tomorrow so...
On a semi-related note I'm really very sorry that I haven't been posting anything. When I first decided to make this I figured I would post pictures of what I was working on all the time, but I have been really busy with school. If you guys want me to talk about or show you anything on particular just let me know. For example I could tell you about the up coming choir field trip where we get to leave school to sing at another school or how the people in my science class are terrible to work with or how I feel like I am losing my best friend. I could even tell you about his huge project I'm working on.
Speaking of my life, we had auditions to get into the higher level of band in my school and I got in!!!!! I was really excited because I was fairly sure my oboe playing skills are not as good as they could be. Anyway I should be getting to sleep now, I have a long day of cramming to do tomorrow.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Effulgence
Noun, lightness, glowing
I said a while ago that I would tell you how I got the name, and truth be told I really don't have anything elce to say today, so here goes nothing.
I was trying to come up with a name that would describe both a little bit of who I am and what I do. I considered many things from my online name to a really brief description, like "a collection of ramblings" or "the way I see it" or maybe "a project driven life." I wanted something that had some meaning to me. I finally decided on a title after much consideration "of darkness and light," however I came upon a small problem, like so many others my first idea had already been taken. No matter, I figured I would simply alter the word choice. That's when it hit me, one of my favorite characters had an affiliation with an word that meant something resembling "lightness," Spike from Buffy was the character and the word was effulgence. The final step was finding a word that meant darkness. I simply used the internets to find a synonym. Tenebrosity was the only word that sounded right and had a effective connotation. Little known fact, I actually had no idea what tenebrosity meant before I started writing for you all. What a way to learn vocabulary. Anyway now I find the need to use big verbiage in order to stay in line with he title.
I said a while ago that I would tell you how I got the name, and truth be told I really don't have anything elce to say today, so here goes nothing.
I was trying to come up with a name that would describe both a little bit of who I am and what I do. I considered many things from my online name to a really brief description, like "a collection of ramblings" or "the way I see it" or maybe "a project driven life." I wanted something that had some meaning to me. I finally decided on a title after much consideration "of darkness and light," however I came upon a small problem, like so many others my first idea had already been taken. No matter, I figured I would simply alter the word choice. That's when it hit me, one of my favorite characters had an affiliation with an word that meant something resembling "lightness," Spike from Buffy was the character and the word was effulgence. The final step was finding a word that meant darkness. I simply used the internets to find a synonym. Tenebrosity was the only word that sounded right and had a effective connotation. Little known fact, I actually had no idea what tenebrosity meant before I started writing for you all. What a way to learn vocabulary. Anyway now I find the need to use big verbiage in order to stay in line with he title.
Friday, March 15, 2013
Dependable
Adjective, someone who can be counted on, the excuse people give when they need you to do something for them
Gosh, I'm so tired. Warn down, and worn out. I feel like an old rag. When will I ever feel excited again, empowered? The world is weighing down on me and it is a heavy burden.
Gosh, I'm so tired. Warn down, and worn out. I feel like an old rag. When will I ever feel excited again, empowered? The world is weighing down on me and it is a heavy burden.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Bravery
Noun, courageous behavior, being able to do that thing that makes your hands shake and your stomach turn to acid.
Courage is good and all, but sometimes the best thing to do is respectfully yet firmly decline. And if that fails yell and make a fuss, because the point of freedom is to be able to choose, not just who it is that is telling you what to do, but everything about your own life. Stand up for what you think is best, for you, for your friends, for your nation, for the world.
Courage is good and all, but sometimes the best thing to do is respectfully yet firmly decline. And if that fails yell and make a fuss, because the point of freedom is to be able to choose, not just who it is that is telling you what to do, but everything about your own life. Stand up for what you think is best, for you, for your friends, for your nation, for the world.
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Time
Noun, a big ball of wibbly wobbly timey wimey stuff, something that everyone, save time travelers, lack
I am really not one of those people that can stay up until four I the morning and be perfectly fine the next day. I need at least a good ten hours of uninterrupted sleep. I learned my lesson again today. I stayed up to late fangirling and slept fitfully. The whole day I spent tiered and crabby. Ugh.
I am really not one of those people that can stay up until four I the morning and be perfectly fine the next day. I need at least a good ten hours of uninterrupted sleep. I learned my lesson again today. I stayed up to late fangirling and slept fitfully. The whole day I spent tiered and crabby. Ugh.
Friday, March 8, 2013
Acceptable
Adjective, something that belongs or is part of something bigger
We may all preach of individualism and standing up for what we believe in, but really deep down inside each of us is the driving need to be accepted, to be admitted into society. Weather it's the popular crowd, or the group of guys that always seem to be talking to your good friend, we all desire social acceptance, so my question is: why don't we just let everybody join our group. With the accepting of that really obnoxious kid who insisted on bugging you, contrary to popular belief, most people don't accruals hate you. So why isotope that most of us feel all alone?
We may all preach of individualism and standing up for what we believe in, but really deep down inside each of us is the driving need to be accepted, to be admitted into society. Weather it's the popular crowd, or the group of guys that always seem to be talking to your good friend, we all desire social acceptance, so my question is: why don't we just let everybody join our group. With the accepting of that really obnoxious kid who insisted on bugging you, contrary to popular belief, most people don't accruals hate you. So why isotope that most of us feel all alone?
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Writer's Block
Noun, when you just can't find the words to explained how you can't find the words to explain
I don't often lose the ability to put my thought into words, which makes it all the more difficult to deal with. The problem with this world is it lacks the artistic touch. The system for which the world so heavily relies on is almost completely based off of "left brain" thinking. Everything is logical and structured in a way that is difficult to work in as an artist. You can see this come out in the idea that majoring in art is a bad idea. The world is not structured in a way that lets people have time to realize there ideas fully and creatively. It forces people to think in a very structured Manet and often punishes people who don't. I am not saying I have a better idea, or that the current system is all bad. All I'm trying to say is that this world is not built to be a utopia for artists.
I don't often lose the ability to put my thought into words, which makes it all the more difficult to deal with. The problem with this world is it lacks the artistic touch. The system for which the world so heavily relies on is almost completely based off of "left brain" thinking. Everything is logical and structured in a way that is difficult to work in as an artist. You can see this come out in the idea that majoring in art is a bad idea. The world is not structured in a way that lets people have time to realize there ideas fully and creatively. It forces people to think in a very structured Manet and often punishes people who don't. I am not saying I have a better idea, or that the current system is all bad. All I'm trying to say is that this world is not built to be a utopia for artists.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Music
Noun, expressing one's feelings through a system of rhythms and notes
Music is something that is really important to who I am, and I just realized I hadn't talked about my love of music yet. I sing and play the oboe inside of school, and I defiantly consider myself a band geek, but that's not the point. The point is for me music is a gorgeous way of expressing yourself in a way everyone can relate to. So you can bet sometime soon I'll be putting up a clip of something I sang or wrote or played.
Music is something that is really important to who I am, and I just realized I hadn't talked about my love of music yet. I sing and play the oboe inside of school, and I defiantly consider myself a band geek, but that's not the point. The point is for me music is a gorgeous way of expressing yourself in a way everyone can relate to. So you can bet sometime soon I'll be putting up a clip of something I sang or wrote or played.
Monday, March 4, 2013
Rage
Noun, so angry that you are not able to express yourself in words but must instead resort to gutteral noises
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhh!!!!!
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhh!!!!!
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Begin
Verb, present tense, to start
Every night I feel waves of fear grow within me. I have had this fear right before I go to bed for several years now, but I think I have finally figured out why. Ever since I was about ten I have woken up each day with a different outlook on life. Everyday ment beginning my life anew. Somedays I'll be joyfull and some days I'll be sad or hopefull or mad. The end of everyday is like the death of who I was that day. Often it's a good thing to say that everyday is the first day in the rest of your life, but it can also be terrifying to know that tomorrow you could be totally different. I think that these feeling are because i have bipolar type two.
Every night I feel waves of fear grow within me. I have had this fear right before I go to bed for several years now, but I think I have finally figured out why. Ever since I was about ten I have woken up each day with a different outlook on life. Everyday ment beginning my life anew. Somedays I'll be joyfull and some days I'll be sad or hopefull or mad. The end of everyday is like the death of who I was that day. Often it's a good thing to say that everyday is the first day in the rest of your life, but it can also be terrifying to know that tomorrow you could be totally different. I think that these feeling are because i have bipolar type two.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Up
Preposition, not down
Today I realized something, I don't need to be sad, or complain, or worry. There really isn't anything to be sad about. Everything is going to be fine, all you need to do is enjoy the moment. You have to live for the now because you have no idea will things will get better or worse.
I guess you could say I'm having an up day. Rest assured I will be back to crying and complaining by tomorrow, but for now it's blue skies.
Today I realized something, I don't need to be sad, or complain, or worry. There really isn't anything to be sad about. Everything is going to be fine, all you need to do is enjoy the moment. You have to live for the now because you have no idea will things will get better or worse.
I guess you could say I'm having an up day. Rest assured I will be back to crying and complaining by tomorrow, but for now it's blue skies.
Friday, March 1, 2013
Regret
Verb, to feel bad about something that happened in the past, no mater how long ago it happened
One of my many character flaws is not being able to take criticism. When someone tells me I have done something poorly or not the way it is supposed to be done I feel terrible, weather they meant to be kind and helpful, informative or cruel I always feel this deep sensation of failure deep in my heart. It has been difficult for me to learn. I am always so worried I will mess up or fail. So many times I have just wanted to be able to take what others say about me with a grain of salt.
One of my many character flaws is not being able to take criticism. When someone tells me I have done something poorly or not the way it is supposed to be done I feel terrible, weather they meant to be kind and helpful, informative or cruel I always feel this deep sensation of failure deep in my heart. It has been difficult for me to learn. I am always so worried I will mess up or fail. So many times I have just wanted to be able to take what others say about me with a grain of salt.