Procrastinate

Procrastinate, to wait around in hopes of being struck by a sudden insperation, to wait untill the last second to do something
        I really don't think of myself as a procrastinator, but this past month has been really full and I didn't have time or energy to work on this long term project and now it's due tomorrow so... 
        On a semi-related note I'm really very sorry that I haven't been posting anything. When I first decided to make this I figured I would post pictures of what I was working on all the time, but I have been really busy with school. If you guys want me to talk about or show you anything on particular just let me know. For example I could tell you about the up coming choir field trip where we get to leave school to sing at another school or how the people in my science class are terrible to work with or how I feel like I am losing my best friend. I could even tell you about his huge project I'm working on. 
         Speaking of my life, we had auditions to get into the higher level of band in my school and I got in!!!!! I was really excited because I was fairly sure my oboe playing skills are not as good as they could be. Anyway I should be getting to sleep now, I have a long day of cramming to do tomorrow.

Effulgence

Noun, lightness, glowing

        I said a while ago that I would tell you how I got the name, and truth be told I really don't have anything elce to say today, so here goes nothing.
        I was trying to come up with a name that would describe both a little bit of who I am and what I do. I considered many things from my online name to a really brief description, like "a collection of ramblings" or "the way I see it" or maybe "a project driven life." I wanted something that had some meaning to me. I finally decided on a title after much consideration "of darkness and light," however I came upon a small problem, like so many others my first idea had already been taken. No matter, I figured I would simply alter the word choice. That's when it hit me, one of my favorite characters  had an affiliation with an word that meant something resembling "lightness," Spike from Buffy was the character and the word was effulgence. The final step was finding a word that meant darkness. I simply used the internets to find a synonym. Tenebrosity was the only word that sounded right and had a effective connotation. Little known fact, I actually had no idea what tenebrosity meant before I started writing for you all. What a way to learn vocabulary. Anyway now I find the need to use big verbiage in order to stay in line with he title.

Dependable

Adjective, someone who can be counted on, the excuse people give when they need you to do something for them

       Gosh, I'm so tired. Warn down, and worn out. I feel like an old rag. When will I ever feel excited  again, empowered? The world is weighing down on me and it is a heavy burden. 

Bravery

Noun, courageous behavior, being able to do that thing that makes your hands shake and your stomach turn to acid.
 
       Courage is good and all, but sometimes the best thing to do is respectfully yet firmly decline. And if that fails yell and make a fuss, because the point of freedom is to be able to choose, not just who it is that is telling you what to do, but everything about your own life. Stand up for what you think is best, for you, for your friends, for your nation, for the world.

Time

Noun, a big ball of wibbly wobbly timey wimey stuff, something that everyone, save time travelers, lack

        I am really not one of those people that can stay up until four I the morning and be perfectly fine the next day. I need at least a good ten hours of uninterrupted sleep. I learned my lesson again today. I stayed up to late fangirling and slept fitfully. The whole day I spent tiered and crabby. Ugh.

Acceptable

Adjective, something that belongs or is part of something bigger

         We may all preach of individualism and standing up for what we believe in, but really deep down inside each of us is the driving need to be accepted, to be admitted into society. Weather it's the popular crowd, or the group of guys that always seem to be talking to your good friend, we all desire social acceptance, so my question is: why don't we just let everybody join our group. With the accepting of that really obnoxious kid who insisted on bugging you, contrary to popular belief, most people don't accruals hate you. So why isotope that most of us feel all alone? 

Writer's Block

Noun, when you just can't find the words to explained how you can't find the words to explain

      I don't often lose the ability to put my thought into words, which makes it all the more difficult to deal with. The problem with this world is it lacks the artistic touch. The system for which the world so heavily relies on is almost completely based off of "left brain" thinking. Everything is logical and structured in a way that is difficult to work in as an artist. You can see this come out in the idea that majoring in art is a bad idea. The world is not structured in a way that lets people have time to realize there ideas fully and creatively. It forces people to think in a very structured Manet and often punishes people who don't. I am not saying I have a better idea, or that the current system is all bad. All I'm trying to say is that this world is not built to be a utopia for artists.