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Who am I, and what is wrong with this world?

Now

Now, adverb, in the present, referring to what is happening, well, now

     It's a skill I really lack, the ability to focus on what is happening here and now. It is indeed difficult to accept this , I, we all really, like to pretend that we are good at everything and admitting our failings is something most of us struggle with. I should really try more to live in the present. I doing something wrong. Right? Shouldn't I be focused on every little good thing here. Won't that make me happy. .......but that isn't really what I'm looking for. I want to be recognized and admired and that isn't happening right now, so maybe I'm not so wrong after all.

Friday

Friday, noun, the day after Thursday and before Saturday

      Isn't it amazing how much work you get on Thursday? It's like they are trying to make up for the weekend. "Oh dear look at that, they won't be dining work for two full days (minus the metric ton of homework we gave them) we really better step up the amount of work they have to do on Thursday. And if that weren't enough we take tests and give presentations all day Friday. Uggggh. Just ugggghhhh.

Alone

Alone, adjective, that feeling you get when it seems like no one knows you exist

       Ever had that feeling when you are in a crowd and no one is listening to you or looking at you and you get this deep feeling of loss? It is a though you have just lost all you friends because they don't see your pain, they are not there at your side when you need them most. You feel so deeply betrayed, yet at the same time you can't speak up because they wouldn't understand anyway.they probably wouldn't listen anyway. You are invisible. Unseen.      Maybe that's just me...

Con

Con, noun, a reason against a given subject, convention 

          As you have probably already figured out, I am a pretty big nerd. Cosplay, fan art and all, but I have only ever been to one con, Packs, and while it was quite interesting, but to me it was not all of what cons are cracked up to be. I am unsure of why it wasn't super fun. It could be because I'm not a big gamer or because I didn't know what I was doing, or because there is just to much of a social aspect for cons to ever be appealing to me. Should I give it another try?

Weekends

Weekends, noun, the last two days of a week, the time that is supposed to be used for relaxing and generally being lazy

      As you have probably already guessed I am really tired, as was my phone last night, thus the not posting until today.

Procrastinate

Procrastinate, to wait around in hopes of being struck by a sudden insperation, to wait untill the last second to do something
        I really don't think of myself as a procrastinator, but this past month has been really full and I didn't have time or energy to work on this long term project and now it's due tomorrow so... 
        On a semi-related note I'm really very sorry that I haven't been posting anything. When I first decided to make this I figured I would post pictures of what I was working on all the time, but I have been really busy with school. If you guys want me to talk about or show you anything on particular just let me know. For example I could tell you about the up coming choir field trip where we get to leave school to sing at another school or how the people in my science class are terrible to work with or how I feel like I am losing my best friend. I could even tell you about his huge project I'm working on. 
         Speaking of my life, we had auditions to get into the higher level of band in my school and I got in!!!!! I was really excited because I was fairly sure my oboe playing skills are not as good as they could be. Anyway I should be getting to sleep now, I have a long day of cramming to do tomorrow.