Tenebrosity

Noun, dark, solemn

The tenebrosity,
How it surrounds me
The walls of a city,
Rising up around me
All the synchronicity,
Means nothing to me

The tenebrosity,
The darkness around
No eccentricity 
Nothing to be found
Dark, no electricity
No light, no touch, no sound

All the tenebrosity
Everything used to mean so much to me
The rising toxicity,
In all that can be
Specificity,
lost to me

         Sorry about the bad poetry. Sometimes it seems that it is easier to communicate when your not entirely sure what it is you are going to say. The ring is just so that it sounds nice.
         Basically, what I was trying to say was, sometimes I feel as though I was surrounded by and darkness that no one else can see. For a long time I speculated that I had some form of depression, but more recently I have come to believe that I may have Bipolar type two. That's actually where I got the name of this blog from. I considered explaining the name earlier but, I wanted to designate an entire entry to it and I just haven't found the right time. For reference I think I'll call it effulgence.